How do I recover/forgive myself after this "binge"?
okay so it wasn’t a total binge more of stupidity..but how do I "recover" and not gain weight from this? Will I? So today I had a normal diet:breakfast was normal, lunch was light and for "dinner" my parents wanted to go out to chinese at 2:00 and . so I just went along (its Sunday we usually go out and eat)I ordred a tofu and mixed vegetable plate. after that we went to my grandparents house (sunday family gathering) and they offerd me cake and coffee. Im like *cool I’ll just drink Coffe and skip cake* THE WHOLE day until 2:00 to 10 pm when we came home I ddidn’teat. Pretty stupid. Once we got home I went out. I am starving. I had 3 whopping pieces of fruit pizza (home made) two spoons of oorganicyogurt, a few sspoon fullsof rice and I had about 5 hhand fullsof yogurt covered raisins! I was doing so good today until I semi-starved myself and ate a whole bunch. Im not "stuffed" like after a typical binge, but how do I know if I GAINED WEIGHT? I have a scale. How do I prevent it?
I drank cleansing tea after the "episode".
And was it that bad?
please dont preach about how "one day of a binge wont do anythig!" I know…Im just recovering from anorexia (yes yes I know anorexics dont binge well thats a LIE) and Im still self concious. I am more ashamed and kinda hate myself right now and have anxiety of gaining real weight.
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Khloe Briglio on September 12, 2011 at 8:36 am
I’m a recovering anorexic too and I feel your pain. It is true that one day of bingeing won’t cause weight gain, but I understand the feelings behind this. You just have to forgive yourself. You need to tell yourself that it’s okay to binge sometimes. Hell it’s even normal to do every once in a while. If you can’t tell yourself that, then I am. you were not bad. You didn’t do anything wrong, and you aren’t going to become fat from that. It’s okay to feel these feelings. Feelings are neither wrong, nor right, they just are. But eventually logic needs to come into play. (Easier said than done.) Logic says that nothing horrible will happen because of one binge. I don’t know if that helped at all, but I hope it did. If you want to talk you can email me at crazykhloe@gmail.com. it would help (both of us) to not do this alone. I hope you have a good support system and if you do, talk to them about it. Good luck.